Standard Opinion

The standard is what all uphold, when it comes to the general population. There are those who form to their own mold. Ones which they create to substitute the already prepared model.

The model for virginity has two standard molds. One says it is an almost sacred right held to be taken only by the spouse. The other says that virginity is a badge of immaturity. The difference between these opposite ideas is who preaches them. Unfortunately, the idea which is accepted most to those whom this controversy affects the greatest is the second. A teen may hear the constant preaching of value of such a "token," but what they really listen to is their peers, the media, and the culture.

Up until recently, I have had the first mold securely to my heart. The second is now taking shape. What also affected me so thoroughly is the, not exactly pressure, but the influence of my lover. Without them, I would have stayed the same. A virgin. Now, I cannot say that I was not affected by hormones. That definitely had a major role. But the hope for security and love also caused for my decision.

Hypthesis: Summer

The days pass slowly, extremely slowly, until that grand moment when it finally comes. Summer. A time associated with that oh so valuable freedom. No restrictions concerning the demand of education, no responsibility to work ethic, no necessity for any duties. Its taste is sweet and tempting. So tempting and intoxicating, the mind doesn't consider the consequences. There are going to be times of happiness, and times when the cost vs. benefits is unclear. Hopefully all the definitive endings will not be too harsh. Hopefully there will not be to many regretful actions.

I know that there will be some of my greatest memories. I know there will be numerous smiles. I know that I will be able to look back and be happy with what had occurred.

Summer.

Sensual
Unlimited
Mistakes
Memories
Expressions
Roses

Decisions

As I think back on recent events, more specifically just this night, I wonder what consumed my better judgment. Nothing really comes to my mind except for the fact that I am a teenager myself. The more logical side of me had said to just continue on the worn, correct path and to not do anything potentially regretful. Then there was this other half. This half that always is nibbling on my thoughts, telling me about the more hazardous road. A road which did not always guarantee a positive ending. And somehow, I do not know what it is, when you are this age that little voice becomes louder and louder until it overwhelms the sensible one, and all you are listening to is the tempting sound. Maybe you know what I am talking about; although, it seems I have no one who hears what I am saying. If there is anyone out there, I wonder if you know what I am talking about.

Once the deed is done there is no turning back. All that can be done is to face what has just occurred. Sometimes, that face is angry. Actually, it usually is angry. There haven't been many occasions where it ends up with a positive greeting, a happy welcoming.

The Beginning

Teens, what a curious bunch. How is one to really personify the time of life when most mistakes are made? Let me tell you, it won't be done easily. So far, the most common saying is this is the greatest time of a person's life. Yet, if you were to ask if they were to have the choice to go back, the answer is consistent. No. The answer is no. To relive every moment is too overwhelming to do. Even so, there are still great moments in the awkward years. What are those moments? Are they orthodox for every person?